world without strangers??

world without strangers….nah, i dont believe in such things…

Lately, I’m outside the corporate world a lot especially in hotels industry doing my survey…I wish I’m in American countries where doing research is so much appreciated..But not in my own country….I receive many negative feedback while doing this research despite the jamm and waiting…I feel weak inside after all tremendous combo’s of rejection to participate in my survey for my research…Its heart aching…Some dont really bothered and many many says I’ll call back…yet..down throtten my heart…sinking and sinking…..no feedback….no calls…I feel chicken out….definately I do….I fear all those rejections…..The waiting at the lobby also freaks me out….long waiting, being refer and here and there yet ending up with nothing…how’s dat feeling? I guess answers is clear….

 

My family, they dont understands what I’m going through…but somehow I know they are supporting greatly mentally….But I feel so insecure…..The day when my prayer buddy send me a sms telling me to stay strong..I almost cried…because I had just encounter a big lost of hope of the days fighting outside….Yet, they are people i need to thank: Jie and Vic…thanks for accompany…and helping me to drive…I knew I’m too weak to drive on my own…from what I’ve gone through,I myself understands a lot of the people doing research.I promise to be helpful whenever i can as I know the nolstalgic feelings of rejection…Its never a good feeling but I’m hanging on though its tough…Perhaps all this are my vulnerable side…hardly being discovered but I feel like pouring it out…God, stay with me pls….This is a world full of strangers…..

HANG ON EUN…HANG ON…..

A world without stangers??

Tolerance can culminate with LOVE

I find this article very meaningful, so I have the urge to share in my blog:

Tolerance has been made complete in love and perfect love casts out all fear.

“What is tolerance?” I was once asked.

It is truce: Sitting on clenched fist. somethin dat goes:“If I let you be, will you let me be?”

It is talking: Claiming my rights, my story.

It is listening: Being open to your story.

It is respect: Clasping hands together in trust.

It is one story: Creating shared moments.

It is friendship: Genuine caring.

It is love: Expressing complete, mature, perfect love.

It is God’s desire for our world and community.

It is our world’s only hope and it is my desire too…

LET THR BE LOVE AND TOLERANCE… and now 2 my opinion part:

Many times I don not know how to say NO…Am I tolerating too much till being taken for granted…It sucks when the feeling of ignorance come…….I have feelings but i hide it well (but only letting it visible with  minority people)….I wana voice out  too….I can Tolerate but dont overdo it on me pls…Perhaps its time for me to learn balancing for now…better than being grab un-expectedly of the true meaning of TOLERANCE ….yearning for growth and seeking for development through faith,hope, love, and charity…:)

Tolerance and Love goes side by side

Tea of Love

Share the tender moments of love....cheer the relationship with people around us

I  always have the desire to be a loving person..I’m trying hard but I dont want to be popular person but just a person of love…I know my current loop of practising love is first and foremost my family members as  solid foundation of love comes from home…then it spread out to love my friends, my pets, the environment and of cause my future husband..I know not who is he for now, but I know I want to love him whole heartedly and build a magnificent family…sounds pretty tough but I am commited to grow in love…I know challenges ahead is countless but I will make my very best effort to love in truth and faithtfulness….As I go along, i pray that God equip me with all the strength and comforts to be the eunice HE want me to be..

Tea of love?….I’m kinda emotional for today…so, i’m blogging it down..I desire so much to be loved as well….TLC(tender, love, and care)..yeah..i definately need those…At times I feel lost..cuz staying away from home I thirst so much of the hugs we exchange with my family members….Here in KK, I can still practise that with my jie( my sis angkat) and thanks jie for the hugs..but thr’s still a section in my heart crave for having a real close life partner to love and be loved….I secure my feelings very well, I dont wana go head over heels..I long to be loved by someone special in my heart but I cant push a person to do so….Metamorphosis of love applies here…it needs time, understanding, hope, and patience…

Love one another is always the root cause for love…How would it be without love? Love speaks out the truths and always be forgiving the pasts mistakes and seeing the hope to venture in goodness.Love allows no evil but to confront the wrong doings..Love embrace in its own goodness and never selfish beacuse we see the needs of others first..

But No offence, I’m not the 100% successors in love…I get tired also..but its a process I need to undergo….A modification to be able to love more despite of any situation it could be…I feel alone and i get disfigured also of my past…Somehow, one season at a time, I grew and I was enveloped with many transformation to what I am today. I aint perfect.I still have my flaws and I know God has been kind to me as he provides me with many channels of growths..I like this quote:

” Remember that the sun goes down each evening but always comes back up in the morning-even when you cant see it”

This quote always reminds me of to stay on the positive side as it is a assurance that I went in life and whatever happen to me, I would no go alone.I will still have my God and my family members although physically they cant be here with me…Till I find my true love and I love all my true friends in which I have all the desires to hear and to connect consistently..To my special other half that God will provide, I pray that you will be fine and let true love draws us together in aunthencity and genuineness…

Before i end, this will be the concluding quotes for todays blog:

…..TWO SOULS WITH BUT A SINGLE THOUGHT, TWO SOULS THAT BEAT AS ONE…..LOVE ONE ANOTHER AND COMMUNICATE IN LOVE AND TRUTH…..

A Simple Girl Who Marvels the Beach Extremely

The beach: feel the breeze of air sweeping the face...mmmmhhuummm..

There’s a girl who marvels at the glorious beach everytime she’s at the beach….She likes the breeze of the wind, the shades of trees, the sandy textures, sand castle, the bluish crytstal clear water, the views, the serenity and the whole masterpiece of the beach…..the little little holes made by the crabs are as cute as can be to her….The stroll at the beach with her ‘banjir pants’ rolled till the knee cap is always her style of swirling her foot into the cold and minty water….How wonderful the beach is….a place sweeping all her worries away and enjoying the beauty of the nature with her eyes closed…….She feel nestled in love with the beach and always always remain a marvel at heart…..pending with her silent contentment joy…..How would it be to have handheld embrace stroll with a lover she wonders??

 

with love and regards,

eunice

The Rainbow Connection

the rainbow which never fails to give cheers to me

Rainbow as always with its colorful bow always gives me an unique sense of contentment since my young age…There’s this small incident happen yesterday while i’m driving home from church….Its Mothers day and also my birthday…I cant be home celebrating Mama day and I’m encountering a solo day of my own…

 

Its actually not easy to go it alone but My God has share me a gift HE Painted on the sky….complete from horizon to horizon…Its among the most magnificent RAINBOW I’ve ever seen from the last time I saw one…I marveled at the rainbow with its unique visual aids…God calmed me as He knew how weak I am..the Moments I saw the rainbow…next thing i know I’m having blurry eyes in which my eyes start to pool up with transparent fluid….that was the comforting joy inside of me….

 

Immediately my head has this soft whisper as if the Lord says: “My dear Eunice, You are not Alone…these Rainbow is just for You my beloved child…” with the tears of joy, i mute my radio and driving the path with a smile and a big THANK YOU….I began singing and humming the song ” Seek Yee First”….that song is very soothing and making me very relax…a the same time, there’s also this song ‘The Rainbow Conection Songs” in my head reminding me of the colorful remark of the tremendous rainbow….

 

Then, i feel uplifted again…and i say to myself: Why not treat myself McD for tonite…So, I went to McD drive through….The Burger Boy at the window is a  very smiley person for today…and after i paid for my McD Quater Pounder, I thank him and wish him goodbye before i depart from the window…The burger boy has really done a good job to serve with a smile…even a random person smiles at me, i feel rather cheery….

 

But sometimes i also ever get the wrong signal….there’s this one time, A stranger smile so radiantly that I thought she was smiling to me…So, as a gesture of replying i smile back and even with my hands waving….But..but..but..then, after a few milisecond, i dont feel right, she’s actualy smilling at the person walking behind me….I was like..oh oww…i even wave when she smile so radiantly…it was so so awkward and paiseh…silently I quiken my speed and wish to be vanished..haha…

 

todays blog is a short one….last but not least…..Find time for yourself to smile because we never know who is falling in love with our smile…I found out many positive people have plenty of reasons to smile and its very very loving….A loving people also comprehend their love through smiles…NEVER underestimate what  a smile can do..small gesture but of BIG effect….here it is…the smiles: Tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa:

TAdaaaaa: me and my cousin, Jemi....smiling away with teeth on....lol

Exuberantly thankful…part3 of shalala

here it is for today’s input….tadaaaaaaa:

1. Shar- receive offline message from her…was happy to be remembered by this old fren of mine and she invited me for a visit at her place and chia me eat SUBWAY which in kk or miri doesnt have this shop yet…I once eaten at this shop wif a friend of mine and we share a serving….and recalled back of the kinda messy eating style of mine..lol…when shar mentioned bout this Subway…I am trigger 2 go again…we ajak Jane sekali ya…the trio trip still in pending…lets just pray bout it ya my buddy gals…
2. Mother- Thank you Lord for the gift of my mom ( the no.1 Lou Ma Chi)as mothers day is just tommorow…Also i wanted to wish my Mother in Heaven(Immaculate of Mary) a big HAPPY AND BLESSED MOTHERS DAY…Not forgotten also to thank all mothers of my friends for raising us up for what we are today… to the single mothers, you are not forgotten either….its never easy to raise a child alone…may the Lord bless all mothers in this universe and bless me to be a good mother in future too…
3. Prayers buddy- thank you Lord for all the sharings we have and the magnificent linking. We place all our hopes, dreams,  life direction, plans and future life partners in ur embracing Hands…Looking foward for the glorious day…..may we be united in faith, perseverance, patience, and love…thanks buddy for supporting all the way when i’m feeling real weak.
4. BDAY wishes on FB: thank you all for all the early greetings in facebook and friendster…its reli means a lot to me…feeling thankful as simple wishes is enough to cheer up my day….feeling contended here..:) wohoooo….
5.  LOVE the unloveable- I was reminded also to love the unloveable…loving the loveable person is easy but how about toxic people??these are the people who needs more love as everyone needs LOVE…in reality, Love at its best because loving someone in mature way, we seek the person’s best and the need to be sought but NOT tolerating them do dwell in sins…Love banishes the brokeness and may I be persevere to love those in hurts so to make a person whole again..may I not be shaken of the daunting task to unlock and to love even more..
6. ‘when dreams come true” – a book that speaks right to my heart…I was in teary eyes upon finishing this book in which God speak directly and bring me hope for the lady in waiting….I entrust all my dreams unto God and I trust in HIS timing..but Lord, pls never let me wait for too long as waiting alone is not easy..I long to see something to happen…Grant me the grace to be patience also my good Lord…
7. Vacumm my room yesterday- my rooms has plenty of my hair falling…Cleaned them and feel refreshed…thank you Lord for the falling and the growing of hairs is of equal…I’m still having lots of hair on my head…lol..just dat I still think its too thick at times..hahahahah
8. Tree- thr’s a jambu tree planted by my neighbour behind…This tree always remind me of my dad who love so much into planting fruit trees…His jambu air is forever the NO.1 jambu air on earth…gigantic in size and sweet..even the ants, squireel, birds snatching with us…lol…its real sweet and nice of the jambu…
9. black out- in total blackness, thr’s candle to light up the place..Am reminded to be thankful of the light we have..when electric resume..thank you for the gift of inteligence for the man who 1stly invented electric…is electric being invented??duno of the terms la..asal maksud sampai..hahahaha
10. songs- songs never fail me b4..i sing and i humm….thank you for the gift of music…Music is just as lively as they are…May the Lord provide me with musical cells man as my future partners…lol…thank you Lord for the good music u created..Thank you Lord for  St Cecilia as the saint of Music…my mom name is cecilia and so does my prayer partner comfirmation name…yippie!!!!!
    

    Even a rockman has a warm heart...be gone the heart of stone and let there be more LOVE...AMEN

     

     

     

     

     

Silvery VIVA Moments

the story of the peaceful night with my viva

What is this Viva u’re mentioning?? Its no other than my tiny reliable little car with her ID entitled QML5987…I name my things..so my car is not excluded as well- she’s XIAO YIN…Well, all of a sudden my Xiao Yin is sick….I duno of the reasons why  it fell so sick that it cannot start at all…and weird thing is I remembered i just pump my fuel last few days ago..but on the screen says: Empty in my fuel tank…

And What a Lucky day…I’m having my 1st Final Paper on the same day!!!..my exam started at 7pm…Its already 6.15pm when i realized Xiao Yin in her totally comas….well, well, well, have I not nervous at moments like this..Definately YES!!!…It was a real blesing when my jie is at home..Thank goodness for the ride to my exam hall….That lift of ride is really a very helpful gesture of hers and I was full with gratitude inside my heart for the help..On the way to my campus, there’s a bush fire nearby my housing area (Kingfisher)…The flame of fire is still strong and many onlookers ( mcm the trends of Sabahan-they like to look)..lol..still I find chances to be thankful as the road is not badly congested yet for now..So Swiftly we make way out of the Kingfisher Junction…

And towards the way to my campus, there’s always jamm at the Mini Putrajaya of Sabah…well, dont estimate me for being a good driver always..As  this road is congested badly especially nearing 6.30pm with its two lane street, I sometimes will drive into a so called ‘Third Lane’ street to reach my campus especially in special occasion mode( test and finals)..and today, it sure happens again just that i’m not the driver..kekekeke….So, i reached my campus in time and even have the time to chat a while with my coursemates….Nextly, the test begun and it was a very hard paper…I knew i dont do well but in every circumstances praise God…

This is actually the climaks part I wana share…Ussually when unsignal incidents happens to me especially the unlucky ones, I will have the word ” SHIT…………..!!!!! several times… This time, I knew I dont speak any of it..Instead, I feel thankful of being able to make it to the exam hall….I know my family members everyday in the family prayers, I’m remembered and greatly supported  everday and also my wonderful prayers partner never ever neglect me either…A prayers being answered…I feel even in the darkest situations, still I find needs to be thankful of…And there’s total peace in me…Thank you for all the Prayers….Its really really very kind and i feel So much being loved and its a kind of comfort that I myself finds it hard to explains here…

my travel buddymate 'XIAO YIN'

 

Then, after the test….I was checking on my Xiao Yin again with my jie…Miraculously, It started…WOHOOOO!!! thank God…but it says the fuel tank is empty..And there goes my imagination running wild again…Have someone pump out my fuel but it seems weird for people curi fuel only…have it leak but no symptom of leaking at all..Cuz i remember the last time i check, Xiao Yin still having quite a full tank….So, me n jie drive to the nearest petrol station to feed her with Her foood…Pump RM10 and it overflowed at Rm9.02…Another Climaks :

XIAO YIN is DEAD again for the SECOND time…and its now out in the dark at 12.30am in the MORNING!!!I did not bring my handphone too…I dont have the habit to carry my hp around me all the time as my hp rarely rings..(dahlah single memang mcm ini de la..super quiet my phone..lol) and this time i Learn my lesson…Bring ur hp everywhere u go especially in times of emergency, U’ll never know when it happens…Luckily there’s still Jie with her Hp…she called up her friend Jolene to help…so, there goes Jie following Jo’s car to get her own car at home and I was left alone with xiao Yin waiting patiently for Jie and her bf to save me…

When jie left me, my heart is sinking….I’m gona be alone here…Its never being eay waiting alone….So, I prayed:

Dear Lord, forsake me not….I’m counting of you…Pls take care of me and my Xiaon Yin…

Its 1.15am in the morning now..stuck at the oil station….there’s some ppl around looking at me…some of their gaze make me so uncomfortable and i end up gazing the other side where i can see the scenery clearly and the foggy clouds..Soon enough, i feel peace sipping in my heart in the silentness…It is a real peace which is unexplainable…straight away I know My God’s spirit is presence with me in the car…….I feel extremely peaceful and its like rested in embracement of Hugs by my Lord…then, i begin to sing and humm some songs….I fear not of the dark even i’m alone out here waiting for jie and her bf to come save me….As i sing and humm along..My heart could not thank God enough of the peaceful moments HE gave me…THANK YOU LORD..really thank you and i give myself a Big SMILE to God…oh owww….I’m into tears when writing this paragraphs…pardon me..I’m kinda emotional creature….for the Love of God that is so loving..

Ok…here’s the rest of it…after the peaceful wait..Help is here…Thankyou Lord for the gift of my jie and her bf…Her bf helped me out with the ‘tukar-ing’ my car batt with their white XIAO BAI….so that mine can be charged to get it moving…To my surprise, when XIAO BAI’s heart (carr BAtt)was in XIAO YIN heart..Xiao YIn move le…but during the taking out part of the heart..Xiao Yin still can breath (wat i mean here is the car can still start) without a heart for a short while b4 replacing her own original heart….Cuz i tot, the car would be dead if there’s no batt even for a few minutes…I Asume Xiao Yin is like human..when a human being’s heart is malfunctioning..its definately to be claimed as………………………” chi dong chi dong chiang” synonymn as Dead…but Xiao Yin still ALIVE and tilll her heart is properly fix back in…yippe…….happily I drive back home…

Thank you for the help to my dearest Jie and Victor(sampai tangan kau kotor kotor)….and i feel blessed for the help…but i was quite dissapointed with Sabahan lo…nobody come offer help as I hope so much for a good samaritan…But in city life, its ussually like this…nobody to be blamed but people are being more individualistic…When a person does offer help, we sometimes will have the suspicious feelings as well….Cuz too much is unprecdictable in a world where so much is right but so much is wrong…Lord, give me the wisdom to help people when they are really in need and May ur LOVE shield me through all my days to bring service to ur people…AMEN…

THANK YOU for the Amazing Viva Moments and many Hugs and regards to all of you….take care and pleasant weekends ahead..

Resuming the Shalala

Guess what? i receive comments that my Blog is very cheery and motivating…makes me more into blogging…its actually part of my intentions too…To bring sharing of my life and together we strive for perfection….nobody is perfect of cause…But the determination to improve is a choice that makes life more wonderful despite tough waves and winding road….Find every moment to be thankful with and this will mould us into positive people….Hereby, my today’s output of the resumation of Shalala project..tadaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa:

1. my flat thin mattress and pillows- Though I sleep on the thin matress, i still find it to be thankful for as it still brings comfort to me while sleeping and I have lots of pillow to hug with…6 pillows in total…mcm terlalu byk la..lol..but there are all comfy…although i dont have any teddy bear to hug…just pillows is good enuf….:)
2. my HP lappie- first thing i touch when i wake up….thank you cu it  let me do my works, check my mails, playing around with my facebook, and oso MSN to enable me communicate with frens, cousins and love one…
3. My breakfast- now i force myself to eat breakfast as I do not want my family, jie and jane worry (I know i scare them bad enuf when i fainted)..I cant have heavy breakfast but just a glass of milk…need to learn how to drink milk le…I dont feed on milk since young..but now need to learn le…praise The Lord for all its nutrient and calcium it gives..
4. Meeting with supervisors- though it does not turn out to be good output from todays meetings..but still I need to be thankful for having Mr. Julian to facilitate me…I will try my best to work out my thesis though it really haunt me terribly of the stress it gaves me..It gives me rooms to improve….:)
5. My lunch- today jie is at home….what a blessing cuz i do not have to self force eating crackers and oat…thank you for the good food jie…U’re wonderful and a marvelous cook…
6. dish washing- I owez tell jie dont snatch with me for the washing part..Let me do the washing..when doing things with love, you dont feel its bothersome but glad to be of service..I think jie understands this best when she cooks for us…right jie?? i bet it is…haha
7. groceries- doing groceries with jie is fun too..i learn to be ‘auntie’…haha..but its also a fun fact to learn…sooner enough we’re gona be a mother in future….i feel love of the feeling of togetherness doing groceries…hoping my future husband can do groceries with me in future too..haha…(eun, wake up la!!!) dont dream till that far la…
8. Bro Augustine- a bro of mine with no genetic connection but close enough to share all the ups and down in life through msn…A man who loves his wife,family and also a workaholic..He also have partial concern to this sis of his…I feel the warmth of the brotherhood this bro gave me…although he tease me  a lot….lol…:)..thank you
9. My Jie- a simple lady with the world softest heart….lol…endlessly she pour out her love to her ah dear and also me..i feel loved having her around…Maid of honor i book already ah…when u throw ur banquest of flower on ur wedding day..remember aim at me ah..i’ll be catching it…wakkaka…(i’m in the mood of dreaming la)….but sooon enough will come true..Wish you and Victor to be the blessed in every events in life…dont fight over small matters la….aching my heart when i see u both quarrel…clear it fast and owez remember to look on the bright side of things….cheers babe
10. Prayers- me and Jane have encounters many things together and I’m truly happy for you Jane…for the surprises God gave u…keep it up dearest Jane…I know God will make a way….and u’re truly a musician that I long to see you performing…when a prayers is answered, I am leaping with joy…thank you Lord for all ur blessing…..
    

    Find each day to be thankful of as Life itself is wonderful

Inside my Heart of Loneliness

Life itself is wonderful...Loneliness is just a temporary journey

 

Todays title is definately about ‘feeling’….Ever since the starting of this particualr year 2009, my journey of life is into a dramatic change….Before i have my goodest roomate (cynthia) and a ‘existing’ isolated roomate i name her as alive furniture ( Miss ABC).  But now its of total different…this semester, i’m living all alone in my long rectangular room..Loneliness is creeping in till I can hear the sound of the mosquito buzzing….the room is too quiet that I dislike it so much but having no place to pour…As times goes by, all this loneliness start to haunt me little by little and its actually accumulating silently.

 

Every morning when i wake up…I see nobody….I have the habit of greeting people good morning in the house but its no longer can be practised anymore as I can only hear my own sound echoing back at me…Often,the house is so empty but only  with a lonely occupant in her age of 25. I do have housemates…but they are all not available at home most of the time…Jie need to be at the lab and her bf needs to go to work in restaurant…In fact i feel eerie about being alone as my path all this while is surrounded with people. Its like a button of ‘rewind’ is pressed towards my childhood period…

 

When I was in my primary skool age, i prefer so much to be alone….I do not want people to know much bout me…and I know i miss many great event of playing with my schoolmates…what a big Lost!!! and I’m having regrets now…As I grow, I started to feel I need companions in life in which the role of frienship has slowly developed in me and resulted  a turning point to demolish the super duper quiet Eunice….

 

But now its like returning to those silent and quiet moments….and it feel so horrible inside..So much I wish I could have a bf especially when you live under the same roof with couple…Their hands has their lovers to hold…but mine is always in the pocket…Its not that I do not want to encounter any relationship…I would rather not start one untill I have the comfidence of the calling…Say me picky or choosy I’ve heard them lots and its biting silently…Well, I rather wait…Yesterday i was listening to a podcast in the internet posted by Leslie Ludy. In fact i quite agree with her sayings. She says something like this:

Having too many rounds of relationships maybe disastrous as its like preparing her for divorces… Why she say so? Cause each relationship deals with a person and whenever break-ups is taking control, it contribute hurts and pain..when breakups is repeating often in a relationship, the thirst for love is still there but it will transform into dis-ilussions of what real love is about..

Often you find when a person is getting into breakups especially girls, in a short period of time, they do get another new Bf…Its like its become routitional or dependency of having a partner around or sorry to say (for the sake of having a partner but the real meaning of love is very much neglected)..For the worst case, is to be with the wrong person or just to find contentment of having sex..To me Love is something to connect, grow, heal and pure …Well, in my tiny little world: True love still exists and true love waits…Perhaps God put me  single  so that I learn to be independent and at the same time I know its definately too painful to face breakups. I do counselling for others and its really not easy to face any breakups..The sting of pain can eventually cripple a person’s heart to love again..But I’m convince with my enthusiasm to banish all the fear through a simple philosophy which is LOVE…In fact, i find many people are lacking of love cause its never been said…We human beings need assurance and comfirmations at times..When is the last time you sincerely tell a person how much he/she means to you? be a questions to reflect on…I know it might not be easy but be the innitiative person…Any brokenness can be healed through Love but somebody need to take the first step…

At the same time, God does show me guidance of what a healthy relationship should be…and I’m really envying those who has a complete and very authentic couple of love…from time to time I seek counsel from them as from their sharings I’m learning too…

 

Hence, from all the lonely path I know have to bear alone…Its the training ground for me to learn more things in life…Beautifully God has shape me through many channels of help He provide.I’m now very much into books about relationships and single living and the lady of waiting for the right person which i invite God to be the author of my Love story..I know HE is providing me with someone..Often i desperately would ask God to hasten it up but God has his own timing in doing things..I do have calling of the special someone but I shouldnt rush things but God is softly prompting: wait…my child, wait….I know many times i feel desperate, hence i pray for God to give me the patience to wait..Give me all the grace Lord to wait for the very day You gona surprise me…At the same time, i’m praying for my special man I know God is providing me with..He is sure someone worth the wait and I also have the role to play which is to remain faithful and to keep myself in purity and to love my neigbours as myself…Dear Lord, sustain me when i feel lonely, make it a transformation to encounter you more as I know You shall make me strong again..and also:

 

May the Lord  protect my special man from any harm and danger, I know that every moment being share apart for now share greater beauty to the time in future when we will spend our lives together as one…..I pray that God gives him wisdom and knowledge to seize through challenges in life positively and to Love God beyonds all things as well…Dear all especially my beloved friends, do pray for ur other half…One day God will surprise you..and for those who is attached with ur special someone..i seeno point for not praying over ur other half….by all means start one now..As you’ll never know how great the power of prayers could be…But always be reminded not to seek for instant result and gravitication..

 

hence, this is all the feelings i wana share for tonite….its already 1.47am here…The transformation of lonely path shall not shakes me as I know its a great opportunity for me to be ready for the path ahead… i have learnt and stilll keep learning..and I know i do fall down many many times before ( i do complaint and cried) when God put me in this total Loneliness. But I’m thankful of the training period God has provided me with as I learn to appreciate things that God has provided me with so far..Its just too many to mention even to the tinniest events i life..thank you Lord for the moments of loneliness as I still see wonders of ur purpose and MAy the good Lord bless everyone of you….Amen…

 

I’m off to bed now…Good nite and pleasant day for the next morning….with a early bidding to all: still i love to greet : GOOD MORNING!! take care and many hugsss..

THE MARVELS in THE FAMILY….A dedication to beloved Mom CECILIA….

MOM N I

How blessed we are as a family form by God…Cecilia Lau is her name and having to be beautifully married to my wonderful dad, Cosmas Yung…Granted under God magnificent gift of their marriage here come  lil eunice and daniel to make the family as a whole…As Mother’s day is here and i’m unable to be home to celebrate for you…Here it is…my litle gift of words and having u as our Mother means a lot to us…your existance and love is very much appreciated and always u plays a big role in our hearts…

 

how should i begin…lets rewind back to the days when we’re still in Sarikei that time…I’ve seen all her struggle when dad is away from home as the breadwinner of the family..Dad’s hardwork is beyond comparison and it hurts so much letting him go to work afar from home…cuz i’ll miss him like crazy..i remember 1 year  i cant control my tears when coorincidently we have teeth checking in school….it was the day my dad left for work to Miri andI cried  not because i fear the dentist checking my teeth..its all because i miss those quality time my dad share with us as a family..the tears trickled down my tears till i know the nurse was kinda annoyed..saying ” tak sakit la amoi…tak payah nangis”.this real life mini drama i remembered it clearly till today…

When dad wasnt around, my mom has a double role to play…she at the same time our mom and also my dad…I know its bitter when all the bullying begins when dad wasnt at home…I’m not gona mention much about the bullying but i see  her heart of forgiveness so so deeply rooted in her to not complaint a thing…She did not tell all of her pain as she do not want my dad to worry (I discover this while i’m having quality sharing with my dad) and all she bears it alone..her pain is endless and though i’m only in my primary school, I see it al but its really beyond my might to help..Willingly my mom took the responsibility to provide us abundantly with all the love a child needs. Her passion in educating us in our studies is determined and that time i hate her asking me to byheart the math (darab) timetables…sifir sucks so much for me….but as time goes by, i need to thank her for all the strict demand in education..its for our own good…now i’m able to relate my math easily..i believe my bro, daniel oso hated his sifir so much that time..haha…

 

She wept not but standing strong and devoted to this small family…though my dad is afar…their love is made strong and not selfih at all….I see her still able to smile strongly and there she shines gloriusly while delivering talks in the church comunity…I’m very very convince that she finds her comfort in the Lord…she never fails to serve…She serve the family to the fullest..Her comitment is all under one simple philosophy which is LOVE….she’s a teacher in school and her passion in teching also the same…whereever she goes, people like to have her around and she mix well with the youngsters….

 

I know many of my friends envy my mom cuz we can have the world most great bonding between a child and a mother..We can go KFC-ing or PIZZA HUT-ting 2gether…we spank each other butts..we dont call her by mom but  calling her ‘LOU MA CHI’ in kantonis..which means emak tua….hhehehe..she get use 2 it and she responded when i nickname her oso with funny nicknames even…haha..many times we like to tease her when me, daniel and dad ganging up to tease her….haha…those are the sweet memories and very very happy to be in the family..this is how the togetherness of the family matters..it can be full of laughters and LOVE…

 

Her LOVE isnt ordinary LOVE but of a solid foundation…she seldom complaints of the tough days she once had and all she is the most faithful lady I’ve ever seen….so devoted to the family and showing concerns to those being bullied..She’s those kind of person who would stand up to help those being bulied…and i know it very well her LOVE is just so pure and sincere…Not selfish at all and always putting us on the first place before she herself..I rememeber clearly when everytime we have food on the tables, she always eat those hangus hangus or out of shape telur…she owez let us have the best in everything…i once have not notice this but when i come to live alone in KK..i’m owez reminded of her goodness whenever i see hangus food….Her sacrifices for the family is enormous and at times i know true loves hurts….all she ponder in her heart and do it for the sake of LOVE of this lil family and for our good Lord oso..

 

This is how she shines in the family…her anguish and bitterness she fears not but still she’s always strong and serve the family humbly and sometimes there’s sight of her very macho indeed….whenever we cannot open the lid of a can, we know who to approach or someone will say: Ask ‘Lou mA chi’ buka for you..she’s strongest in the family…this is how she get her nickname…org paling kuat buka the lid of bottle/cans..haha…she can be as cute as she is..sometimes u will find her very cute when u ask her to pose using peace sign on her hands…another thing i wana share…when she haachewwwwwwwwwwwwwwww….haha..the house will shakes…she HACHEEWWWW very loud la…and we always laught at her…hahaha…:)

 

dearest Mommy Cecilia, We LOVE you very very much and from the deepest of my heart….HAPPY and BLESSED MOTHER’S DAY…Ur contibutions in the family is countless and I really treasure it so much..ur motivations is the source i get going and never will we find another Cecilia LAu so wonderful as you are….THANK YOU MOM and we LOVE LOVE LOVE you SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH……………..

as it is owez u who give us this line of blessing, today let me read this lines to you….Dad, u’re oso included ya.. jangan cemburu…You both are the most wonderful gift to the family…here it is the line:

MAY THE LORD GUIDE YOU AND TAKE CARE OF YOU…MAY THE LORD BE KIND AND GRACIOUS TO YOU….MAY THE LORD LOOK ON YOU WITH FAVOUR AND GIVES YOU PEACE………….many many hugs and love…..

 

Ur beloved daughter,

eunice agnes yung….

& daniel sabastian yung….